The Beginning, The Goal

So for the last few years I have felt like I've been in a rut, like I've been going through life living day by day with no goal, no direction, just aimless like a compass whose needle never points north. It all boils down to a period of time where I took life way to seriously, without taking the time to enjoy life, and getting burned out. Four years ago, this past May, I did something that I had always wanted to do, but never really thought that I would do; I took a basic scuba diving class. As far as scuba is concerned, the four years since then have been a blur. I fell in love with the sport and a passion consumed with for more knowledge about it.

Even with a passion that I've been pursuing with as much enthusiasm as I've had in a very long time, I still had my rut to deal with. I've often wondered what it would be like to go off and island hop and work as a dive guide in a tropical location. I've had many conversations with boat crews and people who actively do it. I've understood from the get go that a person doesn't become rich by scuba diving as a career, but it's still something that I thought that I would like to pursue, even if it's short lived. Honestly, I've never had the guts to do it. I've feared the unknown. That is until May of 2007 when I decided that I needed a change. I needed to finish school, because I never graduated from high school and wanted to finish my associates degree for my own satisfaction before I moved off and eventually started working towards a bachelors degree. I also needed a change in scenery, to see the world, and pull myself over this rut. So last spring I decided that I was going to start going to school full time to finish ASAP.

While I may or may not end up moving to an island, I am definitely going for a change of scenery. I'm going for that laid back, beach bum environment where you deal with things as they come and you move on. I need that in my life. It will happen, very soon. 2009 is the year that I leave Amarillo and search for the beach bum inside me.